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week 17 & 18, bending not breaking

May 12, 2020

the last two weeks have been all about bending in all ways and in all directions, and the good news is: nothing broke I repeat, nothing broke, nothing broke, nothing broke. slightly bruised and healing, very slowing

these past two weeks have been tremendous in their unveiling unearthing and their necessary revelations about my family here and now lead toward our slow, but sure coming together in greater understanding compassion and familial love for the long haul, until death do us part business please quote me on that

this week marks six full months that I’ve cohabited with my younger brother, his fiance, their son (16mo), two dogs, one cat, and four chickens AND it is the longest amount of time that I’ve cohabited so intimately with anyone in a good, long minute.

The stakes feel the most high and nonexistent all at once. Strangely normal that.

UPDATES: not much cooking, not much birding, sparks glimpses of joy and I’m grateful for that and the space time leisure to keep pressing into the uncharted territory, that is consanguineal familial love and striving daily for Domestic Tranquility, which apparently doesn’t just happen for more a few days at a time or am I missing something astronomical cosmological here? HA HA.

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I have listened to some great old tunes these past couple weeks and they have kept me company as music always does. In honor of music as Mother I add two of mine to my wonderful playlist, namely Kate Bush and Talk Talk.

2020 Playlist (listen so far and in this specific order)

  1. Time by Jungle
  2. Severed Crossed Fingers by St. Vincent
  3. Lemon Glow by Beach House
  4. 666 by Bon Iver
  5. The World at Night (for Stew) by Walter Martin
  6. The Place I Love by The Jam
  7. The Great Pretender by Brian Eno
  8. Hot Freaks by Guided by Voices
  9. I Like That by Janelle Monáe
  10. Spare-Ohs by Andrew Bird
  11. This is To Mother You by Sinéad O’Connor
  12. Cry to Me by Idles
  13. A Little Lost by Sufjan Stevens
  14. Holes by Matt Berninger
  15. Swimming Horses by Siouxsie and The Banshees
  16. Shameika by Fiona Apple
  17. Rocket’s Tail by Kate Bush
  18. Life’s What You Make It by Talk Talk

“It is astonishing just how much of what we are can be tied to the beds we wake up in in the morning, and it is astonishing how fragile that can be.” (Gaiman, 2006)

And that’s all I’ve got to say about that.

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